Behind
the Shades
Written by Sheila Jean Robinson and Glenn Swanson
Book Review by Dennis Moore
In an aborted
attempt to get the daughter of the late musical legend Ray Charles, Sheila
Jean Robinson, to attend the 7th Annual Diamond Literary Festival "Authors
Dinner Cruise" in San Diego, I have been provided a fascinating look
into an icon, through Robinson's book, "Behind the Shades."
Robinson was to participate in a book signing and to sing one of her father's
classics, "Hit the Road Jack." Although not this year, we have
been assured that Robinson will attend next year's Diamond Literary Festival
in San Diego.
"Behind the Shades" is really a story within
a story, for it chronicles the author's estrangement from her father,
and it includes a manuscript of her mother's, Sandra Betts' turbulent
life with the musical icon, Ray Charles. Robinson writes candidly about
her own drug addiction, life in a federal prison, her five children being
taken from her, and her road to redemption. She also writes of her attempts
at a musical career, and her father's role in shaping her career.
The author would go into candid, and at times, heartbreaking
detail as to how she would lead a life of drug addiction, incarceration,
estrangement from her family and friends, and her finding Christ. Her
story seems so implausible, especially considering all she had to overcome.
But she did it!
Robinson gives a vivid picture of her time in and out
of prison, in one particular instance stating: "Everybody wanted
to be my friend, to hang out, seeking answers to a world I knew nothing
about. They didn't understand, unable to imagine my life had been similar
to their own, running and hiding from pain and poverty. Drugs. Dope. I
could tell stories about seeing Dad for a couple days, or a day, or a
couple of hours. A splash and a flash was all I knew of him and that was
it." Reading her book, one can even sense a bit of mis-placed anger
towards her father.
The
author states something very profound in her book, that perhaps explains
her overall life, and this while in prison: "I was already down and
out. I didn't want to talk about how I made the rest of my family feel.
I made it back to my room and walled myself off. If trying to escape the
pain of my past life led me to prison, then even prison offered no freedom
from the root of my pain. Were I a psychologist in the research field,
I would, like Freud, use myself as a subject to explore a heretofore undisclosed,
psychological malady which I term, 'The Ray Charles Syndrome.' It's deeper
than one might imagine - relationships predicated on the celebrity of
Ray Charles. In my case, he was my father; in my mother's case, a man
she loved. Inside the privacy of myself, I retrieved my mother's manuscript
from underneath my mattress. I found them there, both staring me right
in the face." How poetic!
Friends and family weigh in on this story, with many
offering pertinent observations and insight into the genius of a man,
Ray Charles, and what he spawned. In a letter to the author(s) from a
Nancy Logan, long time friend of Sandra Betts, it states: "(people
assumed) Sandy was a little girl from the country overwhelmed by Ray Charles'
celebrity. From what I heard and saw between them, Ray was the one overwhelmed.
I believe (Sandy) dwarfed any personality I know. Forget Oprah Winfrey.
My memory of (Sheila) as a little girl and teenager was quiet, shy, and
standing in the background. She was the invisible child. I suppose they
both had to pass before she could come out from their shadows."
It is fascinating how Robinson weaves in and out of her
story in the book, with that of her mother's, in one particular instance
her Mom stating in regard to Ray Charles: "You were in France at
a restaurant your promoter owned. You had promised him that you would
come to dinner at his restaurant. Throwing on a sweater and dress pants,
you reluctantly went. Sitting down, a man walks over to you, speaking
with a heavy French accent saying, 'Monsieur, Monsieur. You cannot be
here without a suit and tie.' At the same time another waiter with the
same heavy French accent is rushing over saying, 'Wait a minute, wait
a minute. That's Mr. Charles. We're so sorry, Mr. Charles. He did not
know it was you. Please sit down and enjoy your dinner.'" The author
shares many intimate such details of the relationship of her mother and
father in "Behind the Shade," as well as her own, though in
some instances, painful and full of despair.
I actually cried, when I read "Epilogue-Beyond My
Father's Funeral," in the author's book, when she described her first
meeting with her sister, Raenee, just prior to their father's funeral.
In a poignant moment in the book, the author stated: "I was thinking
about meeting Raenee for the first time. I knew nothing about her. It
was kept from me, just one of many secrets, and I was filled with a wondrous
anticipation as the flight attendant asked if we wanted breakfast."
For some reason, what the author has revealed in this book, resonates
so much with me, and thoughts of my own family. As a matter of fact, the
author reminds me so much of my sister, Calestine, absent the incarceration
and loss of her children.
The author further stated in the Epilogue of her book,
which is significant in understanding and appreciating the current relationship
between these long lost sisters, Sheila and Raenee; "Raenee had spent
more time with Dad than I, a reality that had more to do with geography
and where my mother was coming from. It was Mom's decision not to live
in California. I was pleased to learn Raenee was on the same page with
me when it came to play down the fact Ray Charles was our father."
I recall the author leading me and her sister Raenee
in prayer over the phone, after I had indicated to them that I had recently
returned to San Diego from Chicago, after attending the funeral of a brother.
That, in and of itself, is a testament of the transformation of this remarkable
woman that we read about in her book, "Behind the Shades."
This book is a must read, especially for those wanting
to get a closer look into the life of the musical icon, Ray Charles, the
man "Behind the Shades," from the vantage point of his daughter. |